Monday, June 25, 2007
Birthdays and Things
Today is another birthday…
I love birthdays! It’s that one day in the year that I really have just for myself… Time to think about what i’ve done the past year… What have i accomplished. What’s happened to me. What i want to do. Sort of like new year’s day but only during the middle of the year.
It’s scary sometimes how I think how far I've gone from the 17 year old I was 10 years ago… third year high school. I got thin over the summer because we were going to have our junior prom. crushes, quizzes. getting really low grades in Filipino… (noli me tangere) imagine that?
There are times that I feel scared because I feel that I can’t keep up with the times. Grabe, when you go out and see the younger people and you start commenting.. "nung high school ako di naman ako ganyan…" "Nung college ako di naman ako ganyan". I get the "been there, done that" feeling.
I get scared because the goals I set for myself when I was 17 were either achieved too early or I still haven’t achieved them at all. when I was 17 I said. I’ll get married around 25 or 26, have a kid at 27. I have a six year old son and I am not married.
But what is amazing is the feeling that you have that you’ve changed so much. But then again you’ve stayed the same? I don’t know if it’s just weird me… But I’ve always felt that I’m still the 8 year old child, only with more experiences and i guess more articulate in expressing what I feel and think. But I also feel like the 27 year old that I am. Sometimes, the world around us feels without boundaries. But then again, there are times that the world feels as if it just gets smaller and smaller everyday. I guess, that is life. Constancy vs. dynamics. Life and reality. It’s just a matter of how we deal with each unique situation. Good one moment, naughty the next…
Happy Birthday to ME!
I love birthdays! It’s that one day in the year that I really have just for myself… Time to think about what i’ve done the past year… What have i accomplished. What’s happened to me. What i want to do. Sort of like new year’s day but only during the middle of the year.
It’s scary sometimes how I think how far I've gone from the 17 year old I was 10 years ago… third year high school. I got thin over the summer because we were going to have our junior prom. crushes, quizzes. getting really low grades in Filipino… (noli me tangere) imagine that?
There are times that I feel scared because I feel that I can’t keep up with the times. Grabe, when you go out and see the younger people and you start commenting.. "nung high school ako di naman ako ganyan…" "Nung college ako di naman ako ganyan". I get the "been there, done that" feeling.
I get scared because the goals I set for myself when I was 17 were either achieved too early or I still haven’t achieved them at all. when I was 17 I said. I’ll get married around 25 or 26, have a kid at 27. I have a six year old son and I am not married.
But what is amazing is the feeling that you have that you’ve changed so much. But then again you’ve stayed the same? I don’t know if it’s just weird me… But I’ve always felt that I’m still the 8 year old child, only with more experiences and i guess more articulate in expressing what I feel and think. But I also feel like the 27 year old that I am. Sometimes, the world around us feels without boundaries. But then again, there are times that the world feels as if it just gets smaller and smaller everyday. I guess, that is life. Constancy vs. dynamics. Life and reality. It’s just a matter of how we deal with each unique situation. Good one moment, naughty the next…
Happy Birthday to ME!
Next year, I get to read the newspaper I kept from june 26, 1998.. Tell you more about that when I read that paper.
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